Just calm down.
These phrases make me scream.
Because in that moment when the light is being sucked away and the air is turning to carbon monoxide; strangling, choking, until every breath
In that moment when day turns to night and monsters are real. Hope turns to dust and no matter how hard you try you can’t hold on and it’s
through your fingers.
Because in that moment a scream would be easy and tears fill your eyes blinding you with acid.
Pain blooms inside and your clawing at your throat while wrapping bands of sanity around you just to hold yourself together.
But all that they see is
It’s NOT fine.
It’s NOT okay.
I CANNOT just CALM DOWN.
Because for me my world just imploded.
A million dagger pointed shards flying through the air to every point of my being slicing through to the heart of me and beyond and the world is shaking and the walls are closing in and I can’t even form a scream.
When all you see
Is a spilled glass
Sometime’s it’s not okay. And telling someone that they’re little freak out is over nothing just makes it worse. Not all of us are firing at 100% in the brainpan. I’m not meaning that we’re not intelligent or smart. I simply mean that we have an imbalance. An imbalance that doesn’t need to be told to knock it off, or just get over it. Snap out of it.
And imbalance that needs to be hugged when we say leave me alone. An imbalance that craves solitude when we’re surrounded by people. An imbalance that craves people when we’re alone. An imbalance that just needs a whispered word.
Don’t tell us to snap out of it. Tell us “I see you. I understand you. I hear you. I love you.”